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Boats Against the Current

And still we keep on creating, though myself not as much I would like of late.  Lacking friends with benefits, I turned earlier this summer to friends with books out.

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Marcia Trahan’s memoir Mercy: A Memoir of Medical Trauma and True Crime Obsession explores her own medical ordeals, her obsession with true crime on television, women’s bodies as commodities in society, and her own identity. Sue William Silverman’s How to Survive Death and Other Inconveniences, a memoir in essays, explores assault and addiction, and masterfully illustrates how trauma can stalk a person’s life, sometimes in brief shadow, sometimes in full-blown flashback.

I like to call Lee Martin’s recent fiction “Southern Illinois Noir,” although whether he likes me to call it that is not something I have asked. In his recent novels and story collections, momentarily untethered people make rash decisions that lead to outsized consequences; sometimes, as in his recent Yours, Jean, based on a true crime, an entire town acts as both chorus and cast.

There has been little progress on my own work, except for publicity for and correction of the proof of Censorettes. While I have little to complain about (I know; I am lucky!), how rarely that stops me. I am able to work from home, and I am putting in more hours than ever, including Sunday afternoon, which at least provided peaceful, uninterrupted time. I am attending a virtual writing conference next week, and need to get my day job ducks in a row.

Once I was done, a walk to the park was in order. My new favorite place is Chateau Le Woof, because I love the ingenuity the owners had of turning a former industrial parking garage into a dog-friendly cafe, open to the street, across from the park. On the way there, I met a woman and her dog. The owner and I nodded, but the dog did a full-fledged double take and pulled her back to where I was sitting. “YOU AGAIN!” he would have cried, had we both been human, and cast in a romantic comedy where in an earlier scene I would have stolen his parking spot, or spoiled some meticulously prepared model just before the big presentation. He gazed at me with ardent brown eyes through dirty white fur.

“Hi,” I said to the dog, as his owner tried to break his stare and pull him along, chuckling apologies to me. I said to the dog, “Hot out, right?” and then, as a man walked by, “Okay, I’m really not that interesting. Try that guy.”

Because of allergies, I’m not a petter of strange dogs, particularly ones who regard me like an antic Cary Grant regarding the leopard, if not Katherine Hepburn, in Bringing Up Baby.

Then, I said to the dog, “Alright,” and got up to walk with them to the park.

“You a Vermonter?” asked the woman.

Strange question, I thought, until I looked down and realized I was wearing a Vermont t-shirt. I still think it is a strange question. People don’t necessarily wear t-shirts advertising their home, so they can be returned if life becomes wayward. People visit places and buy t-shirts to show they were there; there is even a cliché about it. But I once wore a t-shirt I bought in Canada on a Brooklyn riverside bike tour, and people kept asking me what province I was from, or telling me how much they liked Quebec.

The woman was herself from Burlington. I told her, then, about Vermont, how I attend the Vermont College of Fine Arts Postgraduate Conference in Montpelier, Vermont every summer (where I met the above authors, Lee, Marcia and Sue), how this year it is virtual, which means I am not at my picnic table on the town green at the top of the hill, or hanging out in the Cafe Anna with my friends, but in my apartment, in my same crippling home desk chair, a captive of Zoom, with pandemic hair and bad lighting (I know; I am lucky!)

Maybe I am a Vermonter.

We turned the corner on Vernon Boulevard, where some string players were entertaining an insufficiently socially distanced group and their dogs.

My canine love interest took off across the park, a sculpture park, which is currently home to this monolith.

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“Because Once You Enter My House, It Becomes Our House,” by Jeffrey Gibson. Read more about it here

The music of the strings lured me out of the park and I stood among my insufficiently socially distanced neighbors, enriched that day by so much heat and creativity.  We are isolated; still, we create. We are ordered to keep a distance; still, we connect. We experience ordeals and suffer from bad decisions; still, we write books (albeit ones with blood-splattered covers).ICan'tHelpFallinginLovewithYou

The string players launched into I Can’t Help Falling in Love with You, alternating the melody line, first the pizzicato, then the legato. We all grew very still and drank it in. We knew we were lucky.

 

History Dames

Last night I went to the 92nd St. Y to see Hilary Mantel with Jeremy Herrin, who is the director of the upcoming Broadway production of Wolf Hall, in a conversation moderated by Candice Bergen, who wore bright red laces in her high-top sneakers.  I was invited by my friend Leslie, who has invited me to at least a dozen things this quarter (she is quite the culture vulture) but due to my schedule of day job as a researcher, writing and grad school, I have always said no.  Hilary Mantel was too good to pass up, however.  And she did not disappoint.

I hadn’t planned to take notes, but she kept saying such interesting things.  As a historical novelist myself (and yes, I realize what that sounds like, putting myself in the same paragraph with Dame Mantel), I have had a recent problem with two of my characters, Nick and Daisy, frisking around in the attic of my brain when I am meant to be doing homework.  Where were they during winter break?  (To be fair, during winter break, I was polishing the novel I am now trying to sell, Do Nothing Till You Hear From Me, and the characters barging into grad school studying are the fresher (in the sense that I haven’t been writing them for SEVEN YEARS), fiestier characters from Untitled Berlin Love Story.

“I had wanted to write about Thomas Cromwell for more than thirty years,” Dame Mantel said, which made me feel slightly better about my seven, and also prompted me to reach into my bag for a notebook and pen.  We must remember when writing historical fiction, she said, that we are writing “characters who are ignorant of their own fate . . . [unaware that their choices] have cascades of consequences that go down through generations.  They’re not people in history.  They’re people in their lives.”

As a researcher, I was gratified to hear Dame Mantel state that the does her own research and has no assistants.  “How do you know what you need to know until you come across it?” she asked, adding that research is “a devious process.  I don’t see how you can delegate it.  The research is just as creative as the writing itself.”

As for how she does what she does:  “A novel is an inherently unpredictable thing.” and “I write in scenes and I put it together like a collage.”  (She is currently writing the third volume in the Cromwell trilogy, The Mirror and the Light.)  When questioned about her “routine,” she said “I don’t really understand writing routines.  I am writing 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.  Nobody gives you a holiday.  You take your sensibility with you everywhere.”

This was gratifying as well, since I remain bruised from an interrogation a couple of years back by a leader of a short-term workshop I was in, who demanded that I explain my “practice.”  What room did I write in, did I write first thing in the morning, did I set aside a time every day?  This same woman was initially delighted that I was going to start graduate school, but then horrified to learn that I did not intend to quit my job to do so.  “When will you have time to write?  You’re a WRITER!”  How, um, I asked her, did she think I was going to pay for grad school without a job?  “Can’t you get a grant?  You’re a WRITER!”

She is a child of the 60’s but even so.  In the 60’s, was there an abundance of grants which provided housing, food, medical insurance to women of an age more likely to have children in grad school than to be in grad school?  But then, we were obviously of different mindsets.  For one thing, the workshop was in “flash fiction,” which I don’t read, don’t understand and, as it became apparent, can’t write.  For another, I don’t “practice” writing, as it is not law, medicine, or religion.  I write novels.  I take my sensibility with me everywhere.

And a novel is an inherently unpredictable thing.